12 October 2014

Was that a yellow bird that flew across the yard
into the wind it went so not a leaf
now when leaves are yellow?  Some bird
unknown, a newfound cave in Celebes
where a woman with a long slim hand
(an Air hand we palmists say) pressed
her hand against the wall forty
thousand years ago and calcite covered it
so we can feel her touch still, long
pinky slender thumb, so prone to love
and art, that other wonder thing.
Was she our mother?  Too many
questions I ask, keep asking.  Where
are the answers I used to tell?

SEA BREEZE final section

7.
But am I sure?
                               Why do I see a crown
idling over her head,
                                                is
she a queen of it
or even more?
                               Did I hear her first
in the wilderness,
                                      Old
Mill,  Murray Hill, Joshua Tree?
The crown persists,
                                           her forehead fits
so this must be the one,
                                                    I pull
with all my night
                                      the
stone from the stone
and veer hard
into her royalty.
                                      Because
these stories
live us still.
                        And not just me.

SEA BREEZE Part Six

6.
It meant an island where the rabbits ran.
No island anymore, no bunnies.  No wolves
to eat them.
                             I listened with my eyes
to the words of your journey
on the silent glossophone,
it rang around me, dark as I was,
                                                          the
spurs
of words caught in my trouser cuffs.
I am far
                   away
in place but in spirit a pine tree
nearby lets a single clench of needles on my
table,
here, I’m writing around it,
                                                            four needle fingers
on one hand,
                             I
spread out and count them to make sure.

SEA BREEZE Parts Four and Five

4.
But um,
the light changed,
                                        her thigh beside you
safe beyond the crevasse of machinery,
her thigh you imagine beside you,
imagine. 
Desire
is like a windshield wiper,
                                                          comes
and goes,
obliterates
                             all
that it has seen,
swipes clean. 
You have seen
nothing.
                   No
image left.
5.
So the sea was natural enough
to come to
                       in its way—
phasellus
                      a yacht or little sailboat,
by Catullus, young poet frequently marvelous.
Sail away with me she said you thought.
The grammar of analytic languages
perplexes with contingency.
                                                              Who said?
Who thought?
                                We were speaking
we were young,
                                      speaking
something
like Chinese in Coney Island.
Or was it Brighton Beach.
                                                          Or
was it raining.

SEA BREEZE Part Three

3.
Everlasting maze.
                                        For you, my friend,
you went through it
and out her other side
                                                 but you were there
abaft the barnacled bottoms of old books,
sleek traffic, sand in your Nikes
everything was yours.  She drove.
No need for caution, kept your thoughts
to yourself,
                        
you always do,
                                                          the
night
was like a crucifix
                                      on
the wall over somebody’s bed.
What does that mean?
                                                  You know,
you always know,
                                      just
stop thinking
and start talking.

SEA BREEZE Part Two

2.
that’s why we chose
to be in body in the first place
or be in her
                             in
grace of union,
and no word said,
                                      I
am the hum of whom
she has chosen,
                                 small trout
busy in her stream,
broken kayaks litter her backyard,
                                                                             capisce?
I didn’t, I thought he wrote capsize
and laughed,
                             he
slugged me
the way they do, men,
                                                and
I was only ten
or something, who knows
how old anybody really is.